I want to share the other side of success.
For those you don’t know me … I’m one of your admins here. I’ve been on the 12WBT philosophy for 16 months . 4 official Rounds with 12WBT. Start weight was 206kg. I lost 65Kg in 1 year.
Current Weight 146.6kg.
Yup I gained weight…. Current loss 59.4Kg
It started about 6-8 weeks ago-I was 141kg – 2kg off cracking the 140’s I was ecstatic!
Then it happened I gained 5kg. I knew what it was- eating portions increased- training decreased.
Then I gained another 3kg. bringing the gain to 8kg. I was sitting on 149.3 and thinking I’m less than 1kg from being back to 150Kg. that figure that I struggled with for months to crack.
How could I of let this happen? I’d lost 65kg, just 5 off 70kg… I was so proud of the changes I’d made, the interest in Nutrition, the freedom feeling of running…. Where did it go wrong?
I stopped and thought a lot about it. I remembered the very most important thing about weight loss. It’s not diet. It’s not training. It’s not organisation or shopping lists. It’s my brain. My mindset.my thought pattern.
Something personal had happened in my life at that time. And then another, and another…. Until the focus of positive wellbeing had literally been shoved in the corner of a room to die a slow death.
I found comfort in chocolate. In wine. In big portions of food. In couch laying. In misery.
I was turning back into the old me.
So last week I sat myself down and had a good talking to. (always an interesting thing to do ) I decided to stop wallowing. To start believing in me again. To make small and large goals. To remind myself WHY I do what I do. To remind myself of the toxic crap I’ve been eating. To remind myself that by overeating I’m growing my shrunken stomach. To look at myself I the mirror and see the loose skin, and saggy body, and remember why it now looks like this. Cause I once believed in me. In the things I could achieve. To believe I’m WORTH more than I was giving myself credit for. To remind me to LOVE me.
I’m far from perfect. I hope I’m never perfect. I’ve evolving daily and I love me like that.
I’ve lost 2.5 of those 8kg this week. I’m not sure how. Belief? Trust? Hope? Love …..?
I don’t have the answer or the tricks to hand on to all of us that struggle. I just know you have to belief in yourself. Give yourself a sense of WORTH. Know that you are capable of bigger and better things than right now…. It’ll take time- so give yourself that gift.
I lost 65kg in a year. I gained 8kg in 2 months. I will lose the next 50+KG over 2-3 years.
Be gentle to yourself. Be reasonable. Be hopeful. Be active. Be positive.